Pulling Myself Together

Elizabeth Taylor quote

I hope everyone had a wonderful Labor Day weekend; the last hooray before fall officially makes it start. Some of you may have noticed that I had taken a hiatus from blogging and almost all forms of social media this August. What started off as an unintentional break ended up being a much needed and necessary unplugged time out.

I wasn’t planning on sharing the reasons of my hiatus on the blog, however I’m learning to be more open with myself and those around me. I had mentioned earlier this year in my Real Beauty Blogger post that I suffer from anxiety, an issue that wasn’t easy for me to share. I have always been fiercely protective of my personal life and feelings; it’s easier to deflect than to admit when something is wrong. Being the oldest in my family, the pressure I’ve put on myself to make my parents proud over the years had led me to gloss over any and all feelings of unhappiness. The thing I’ve come to realize this past month is that no one is able to keep all those feelings in forever.

Over the past year, I’ve felt lost and confused at the direction of my life. Being somewhat of a Type A personality, I have lived my life according to a set life plan that made things comfortable. The thing is, life has a way of handing you some lemons and that comfortable life plan just stopped working for me.

August ended up being month of major personal changes for me. In a short time span, two different friends from my home town ended up losing their parents to cancer, my grandmother was hospitalized for a brief health scare, and with an overwhelming amount of change at work, I became emotionally exhausted. One Tuesday afternoon, I ended up making an impulsive and important decision about my life. That decision at first brought me a huge sense of relief and then brought on one of the worst panic attacks of my life. The old cliche “a fish out of water” is probably the best way to describe what it feels like when you feel like your whole world comes crashing down around you.

After months of traditional therapy, I had come to realize that my anxiety was getting worse and not better. While traditional therapy works for so many people, it wasn’t the right solution for me. What I needed most was my family, especially my mom.

I have an amazing family, especially my mom and grandma who were willing to take time off to come down to Chicago and stay with me. Two weeks of being shut off from the world with the two most important people in my life was just want I needed to essentially “reset”. For the first time in a long time, I am feeling more in control of my life and excited about moving on.

A huge thank you to my friends who checked in with me this past month. Those texts and email messages really meant the world to me. I have met so many wonderful women through the blogging community and I am so happy to have some of these women in my life.

I’m back to blogging tomorrow and I can’t wait to share with you guys a few things I’ve been working on. Here is to a new start!

On Trend: Pullovers

Since this summer has been on the cooler end, I find myself constantly reaching for a light pullover. I normally wear brighter colored bottoms so I like to keep my pullovers neutral by sticking to black, grey and patterns. These colors simply just go with everything and anything you could be wearing. I’ve pulled a few of my favorites that will work for the rest of summer, but also will take you well into fall and winter.

pullovers

:: Calvin Klein Pullover | Glamorous Floral Print Pullover | Madewell Jardin Graphic Designer | Mother The Square Pullover | J.Crew Toile Pullover | Wlidfox Congrats Pullover ::

Casual Summer

summer menswear:: John Varvatos Star USA shirt | J.Crew shorts | Prada shades ::

A few weeks ago when Arin & I hosted our #YESWAYROSE party at 52Eighty, I invited Marty to come and join us. Dressed in his casual summer outfit, it was a rare occasion to see him so dressed down – in a good way!

For those warm summer days that keep you down at North Avenue beach, keep things casual with light button downs and shorts. The summer is all about getting out there, moving and being free.

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:: Photography by Christine Dubay ::

Pinspiration: Between Bread

For the past few days, my daily dinner has consisted of some type of sandwich. I’ve been working overtime, prepping for a move to a new apartment, and entertaining guests. Since I’m constantly on the go, something delicious and portable is just what I need. I’ve rounded up a few amazing sandwiches that I can’t wait to try out.

:: Teriyaki Chicken Sub Sandwiches – Half Baked Harvest ::

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:: Pressed Italian Sandwiches – Seasons & Suppers ::

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:: Turkey & Brie with Fig Jam & Arugula – Frankie Hearts Fashion ::

Turkey & Brie

:: Blackberry & Ricotta Grilled Cheese – Foodista ::

blackberry and ricotta grilled cheese

:: Slow-Roasted Tomato & Cilantro-Cashew Sandwiches – Aida Mollenkamp ::

slow-roasted tomato

Blooming Shorts

floral shorts

:: ASOS Floral Printed Shorts c/o | ASOS Sleeveless Top c/o | ASOS Dockland Sneakers c/o | ASOS Cross Body Bag c/o | ASOS Abstract Wire Cuff c/o | M.A.C. Vegas Volt Lipstick ::

If you haven’t yet noticed, I went for a very specific theme for Lolla this year and for me it was all about the “flower power”. I’m not sure what drew me to the floral theme this year but sometimes I still feel like a five year old who only wants to wear floral print dresses all day every day.

I rarely wear shorts; I’m not super confident about my legs and I’m in total awe of women with those never ending long stems. I was however pleasantly surprised to try on these floral shorts because not only were they an appropriate length (when did shorts become underwear?) but they also flattered my figured. For the first time in a long time, I’m feeling good about wearing a pair of shorts- especially the floral kind.

I paired up my floral shorts with a soft pink top, my matchy matchy sneakers and bag for brunch at my favorite place, Yolk, with my brother Sunday morning. Seriously, if you’ve never made it out to Yolk before you must go immediately!

floral-shorts abstract-cuff-jewelery summer-party-outfit summer-short-outfit

:: Photography by Christine Dubay ::

This post was sponsored by ASOS and all opinions and photography are my own. I do my best to only work with brands that I truly love and feel fit well with my audience.  All opinions are always 100% honest and my own. Thank you ASOS for sponsoring Caravan of Style!